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LIFE

Have you ever experienced one of these moments? I'm sure
we all have, but never really talk about them. Sometimes,
it happens, we feel like absolute shit. Say something
really, really sad or shocking happened. Or nothing even
happened at all, but somehow you feel terrible. You cry.
You're angry. You experience a panick attack. You've got
visions, I don't know. Everyone has their problems.

And sometimes, you experience quite the opposite. For
really no reason at all, you're happy. I'm just in that
mood right now. I'm happy to live, to experience, to be.
To hell with my problems, they can wait a bit. Are they
even worth all the worrying?

I'm just happy to exist right now. How does it make any
sense that we're able to feel our fingers, our breath,
our awareness? Knowledge never has a response for any of
that. We're animals, Sapiens, our organs work like this,
our ancestors built aqueducts, blah blah. The past is in
the past, the future, well, we always get it wrong, and
Science explains mechanisms but not reasons.

How are you here, reading this? How can you understand
what I'm writing? Not scientifically, like "well, my
brain processes the image captured by the eyes and—"
Nuhuhuh. Look away from the screen for a bit. Feel the
present moment. Not in a voodoo-like way, that's already
adding a layer of abstraction over it. Not in a religious
way either, those provide readymade answers that anyone
can spit out without effort. How are YOU here right now?
Get it? No?

Whatever. It doesn't make any sense at all. Just know
that I'm happy to be here, person-who-could-be-from-
anywhere-on-the-planet.